How many dying must there be?
So many untold memories
Who really cares, so many stares
People fade away everyday

Empty bottles tell sad stories
Filthy photos fumbled through
Grubby fingers buy a few
Sick finds for the creep

I can almost hear you breathing
Are you really out there crying?
I can almost feel you dying
Are you . . . Dead?

Parking lots of trash and treasures
Bags and piles of sinful pleasures
Discarded frightful secrets
Jaded eyes dig so deep

How many voices,
How many children,
How many choices,
How many lies,
How many deaths,
How many victims,
How many addictions,
How many loved ones,
How many lost ones,
How many searching,
How many barely holding on . . . .?

Did she find the answer?
Does anybody know her?
Does anybody hold her?
Does anybody love her?

We keep walking over corpses
Retiring our own feeble voices
Disillusioned in her volition
We can see the end

Caged mind, caged life - Death behind locked doors
Dog eat dog eat - Faithless chew on bad news
Peacetime promise - Psychologic lobotomy
Warped thought warped feel - Warped in unreality
Breathing chaos fatality

Introspection
Mass deception
Brain diffusion
Mind intrusion

Internal drips falling from the same drain
Iterations, helpless circle though my brain

Disillusioned
Clawing crawling
Screaming for help
Screaming for help

There's lipstick stain on the steering wheel of pain
Touch the button we all end in a flash
Humor loves tragedy when you awake from the imagery
Like sweat that drips from the Savior's bloody back
It's anestesia that sings, electric shock always stings
I wish my mind didn't race so fast
I'm available to suffer in the conscience of others
Tell the fascist not to offend my inner voice
Cheer up the asylum I've got a life sentence
At the graveyard I roll on broken glass
I long to be in places I dream
The carnival that dances all night
But lately my dreams have been more of screams
And insomnia has dropped by for a snack
There is still one place where devils dare go
And hope is my friend in the dark

In the middle of the masses
An island on the sea
Unyielding are the people
They cannot hear, the cannot see
They're marching to the beat of a hopeless drum

Repetitious clogging leading towards death
It's numbing like a heartbeat lulling you to bed
Obedient to whispers, ultimate devoid
Is it grand to march towards hell?

Where are you going
What's your purpose
Listen and hear
Your band leader is a liar!

Destination pointing in one direction
No consolation for misspent feeling
The misery of marching without any peace
Weighted by the people who sweat against me

Can you hear the voice of freedom?
Can you hear the voice of love?

It's not too late to turn around
Time's not lent to doom
A voice still calls your name right now
99 left for the one still wanting

Can you hear them marching, marching along
Marching alon to the same old song
Circling the world, marching to their grave
Ignoring, wanting arms of the one who saves

I want to ask you but I don't wanna know
Your anger compulsion, your hate has got to go
Little children throw a fit while other wanna pout
Maybe life is more complex than what your anger's all about

Anger rising
Contention thriving
Soul is grinding

Feeling the injustice, not knowing what to do
Living in what ought to be, than living what is true
Start facing the suffering, scream into the sea
Being at peace with what was not, and never shall it be

I'm not a victim
I'm not a slave
Leaving the flesh behind
It's time to disengage

Sharp as razors Christ reveals
Contention for humanity
My inner anger, raging pain
Results in soul insanity
Confess my sin
Repent, believe
Contention for humanity
My inner anger, raging pain
Results in soul insanity

It was for freedom that Christ has set us free
Disintegrating darkness, redemptive suffering
Life is a walk of faith into the world unseen
Liberty descending till I can finally see

Somewhere lost in selfish pity
Written deep inside my heart
Thriving unforgiven city
Bitter anger whole in part

Little promise unfulfilling
Snide remarks are left to die
Close your eyes it's all so chilling
Shameful secrets I love to hide

Slimy creatures
Monsters lurking
Dead flesh creeping
Inside me

Every breath becomes more painful
Living in the underground
You detest the part that lingers
Futures gone without a sound

My soul becomes a toxic waste dump
Tragedy is my despair
I'm standing here in desperation
I'm all alone and I don't care

My yesterday becomes tomorrow
Will this anguish ever end?
I've lived too long inside this darkness
I've got to force my knees to bend

It's bitterness that breeds misfortune
In my head it's nuclear war
Causing mass internal damage
Unforgiveness just breeds more

Chilling desolation
Exhausted soul and mind
Crossroads of my future
To live God's will not mine

I'm looking into eyes
I can see straight to the mind
Catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror
I the thoughts of these
And where I long to be
Desperation for the blood and grace of God

Desperate mind, desperate mind
Desperate mind, desperate mind

Dry white withered bones
Need a drink that I can hold
Eternal water fills my longing, searching soul
I the thoughts of these
Where I long to be
Desperation for God's ever quenching love

Hey friend you're drinking sorrow by the boatloads
Hey friend no one's funneling the lies
Hey friend by your own hand you are wasted
Hey friend by your own hand you will die

Wormwood and bitterness
Chalice of death
Hanging on to coat tails
While dangling in a pit
When will you repent?

Hey friend hopeless thoughts will get you no place
Hey friend you think you've lost your card to the human race
Hey friend your bag is empty, you've got no tricks
Hey friend no magic key to get you fixed

Hey friend blame the world and circumstance
Hey friend why don't you grow up
Hey friend live your life in yesterday
Hey friend no hope for what's to come
Sitting in this dingy hole, your choice and will to die
Sympathetic evil roots from apathetic minds
All our poisoned thoughts will drown in caustic cups of death
The tears and blood of Jesus Christ
Can fill our cups instead

Agonizing everyday
Never bother looking up
Live your life in yesterday
No hope for what's to come

I can't save you
I can't free you
But I can be your friend
Everyman must help himself
And not keep giving in
Jehovah is the only one
To save you from demise
Jesus is the only one
To quench you with true life

Pain
Pride
Cocktails of pity
Won't get you by

Hey friend drinking so much sorrow
Hey friend why don't you put down that glass
Hey friend filled with so much pity
Hey friend get out of wormwood lounge

There's lipstick stain on the steering wheel of pain
Touch the button we all end in a flash
Humor loves tragedy when you awake from the imagery
Like sweat that drips from the Savior's bloody back
It's anestesia that sings, electric shock always stings
I wish my mind didn't race so fast
I'm available to suffer in the conscience of others
Tell the fascist not to offend my inner voice

Introspection
Mass deception
Brain diffusion
Mind intrusion

Internal drips falling from the same drain
Iterations, helpless circle though my brain

Cheer up the asylum I've got a life sentence
At the graveyard I roll on broken glass
I long to be in places I dream
The carnival that dances all night
But lately my dreams have been more of screams
And insomnia has dropped by for a snack
There is still one place where devils dare go
And hope is my friend in the dark

It feels like a thousand years ago living the tombs demon possessed
screaming in the night breaking the chains that hold me,
I tore them from my feet ripping my flesh with jagged stones bleeding into the earth,
I tormented my people as I was being tormented myself,
I saw Him from a distance and fell at His feet
what do you want with me Jesus son of the most high God,
swear to God you won't torture me
I screamed Come out of this man you evil spirit, what is your name?
Legion for we are many then the demons that begged and evil spirits left
and went into a herd of pigs two thousand in number rushed off the cliff and drowned,
I now stand in my right mind telling you all Jesus has done for me,
beg Him to stay and send your pigs off the cliff.
Matthew 5:1-20

Drive your demons in the pigs
Drive your pigs off the cliff